Rants

Power through,dredge through is boring.Everything in life is boring.Nothing has meaning or significance nowadays.There is an overwhelming feeling of nothingness which i cant put my finger on.Its just so bland. I dont even know y i should live.Ppl trying to support me or either hypocrites,manipulators,or who i perched on to on a mental construct sort of way to actually find a perch on. I dont think contrary to popular perceptions, any new entity , enviornment wise or barter wise or human wise will ever work , there is emptiness and cynicism and anger and i dont know i feel disable , just like the cup near my lip being taken away and fates laughing at me with mirth which is getting worser than ever. im scared.