hi everyone, im new on here.
just wondering if anyone knows what is my problem because i feel like theres an issue with me but then again its as if i dont have an issue.
anyways i have no problems making friends, i just can’t keep them. i cant open up to anyone, about how fucking superficial i think literally everyone is, and im just afraid to trust and be vulnerable. but then again sometimes i just open up about everything and anything, people think im an extremely open and cool person. yet i wonder if they truly know me? i feel like a psychopath, and if anyone dies, i wont feel anything. yet on some days i feel so emotional, so easily hurt, so sensitive. it disgusts me.
another thing would be that i think im desperate for love, but also afraid for love.
its such an annoying feeling, that i catch myself having feelings for anyone and im just like “wait the fk up no thats disgusting, youre not in love youre just obsessed with the possibility of being in love”
send help
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Yeah wouldn’t it be amazing if everyone you came in contact with loved the hell out of you! Like Elvis ALL SCREAMING Wtfwaitomg ! Wtfwaitomg ! The truth is you wouldn’t want that either look what happened to Elvis it wound up killing him! The fact is real friends and real love are hard to find and sometimes hard to hang on too, Sometimes your alone for a great period of time other times their all over you and you can’t wait to be alone again! If you feel like your in a rut then change something about yourself, analyze yourself, if your always sad that drives people away for example I remember not to long ago I went to the store all I did was smile and asked how everyone’s day was, the whole store was chasing me! But you only put yourself out there to the ones that you believe have potential not to be superficial and they will stick around or drop you like a bad habit! 🙂 What you are feeling everyone feels until you find a few like yourself. That’s life.
thank u rocketman ;-;
I went through exactly the same thing. When you think of others as superficial, be cognizant that they’re probably thinking exactly the same thing about you.
You don’t open up to others. Remember that they are also probably not opening up to you.
how does one open up to others ? :< and yes im probably superficial too, because im not "all-in" when it comes to relationships
I strongly empathize. I don’t know what’s wrong too but then again there is us. So maybe we’re just the wrong ones here. And it’s okay.
i’m just clinging onto the hope that someday i seek comfort in that fact. for now, thank u.
It’s hard to be honest with people, I found the easiest way to make friends is just find a hobby. It at least gives you a thing to talk about when otherwise everything would be silent. The only problem I found there is that stopping the hobby then tends to lead to loss of that friend…. So not amazing.
Personally I think death is personal. It wouldn’t matter if you felt any pain when they died because you’re kind of looking at it in a selfish way. That is not your death, it is theirs and I think that’s quite a personal thing. It was their life to live, kind of, their right to die. But personal like it could never be yours… I’m just saying I don’t think you’ll be condemned for not feeling sadness if someone dies, because that’s not really your responsibility.