hi everyone, im new on here.
just wondering if anyone knows what is my problem because i feel like theres an issue with me but then again its as if i dont have an issue.
anyways i have no problems making friends, i just can’t keep them. i cant open up to anyone, about how fucking superficial i think literally everyone is, and im just afraid to trust and be vulnerable. but then again sometimes i just open up about everything and anything, people think im an extremely open and cool person. yet i wonder if they truly know me? i feel like a psychopath, and if anyone dies, i wont feel anything. yet on some days i feel so emotional, so easily hurt, so sensitive. it disgusts me.
another thing would be that i think im desperate for love, but also afraid for love.
its such an annoying feeling, that i catch myself having feelings for anyone and im just like “wait the fk up no thats disgusting, youre not in love youre just obsessed with the possibility of being in love”