I’m past the point of feeling like suicide. Now it’s just apathy towards everything. Maybe that’s what I need to survive… to feel nothing.
I’ve felt this before. It was the aftermath of my mental breakdown.
I almost died giving birth to my son. And I can seem to shake that I’m feeling depressed and anxious and suicidal because I should be dead right now. My son is 3 and a half and something still feels wrong about being alive.
I guess I haven’t reached the point of no return. I think I’m just tired of feeling this way.
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Love your handle name, it’s perfect for all of us in this world. My impression, you’re just intelligent and self aware.
Hey, I used to think that apathy is the “solution”. It’s the worst mental state. Please live for your son. He needs a soft, loving and caring mother.
“I almost died giving birth to my son.”
You are brave and courageous.
Thank you both. Your comments are really encouraging.
I guess a lot of living is confidence. I hate faking confidence – it always makes me feel like a fraud. I’m tired of living in fear though.
Lately my mind is everywhere all at once. I like this site though. I feel I can ramble without judgement.