update :: please read

so i overdosed and was in the ICU for over a week . my heart rate was above 150 and my blood pressure was above 200/150 when i first was admitted to the ER and my lungs were completely filled with fluid . my heart almost stopped and the ICU doctor from my hometown said i had a 30% chance of living , if i was lucky . the GI doctor took 3 hours to clean out my stomach and if i had taken any more than i did i would have died . i was quickly rushed from my hometown’s ER to Stanford Children’s Hospital after i was intubated ( basically where they stuck a tube down your throat and into your lungs so you can get oxygen . the last thing i remember is waking up in the helicopter ride to Stanford , half hoping to live , half hoping to die .

once i got to the Stanford hospital i was rushed to the children’s ICU . doctors and nurses were surrounding me and i was only able to breathe because of the tube down my throat . i had IVs in my subclavian vein and my femoral artery . i was given fentanyl and multiple paralytics , as well as drugs to make me not remember anything . the first night at Stanford i spiked a 104 fever and was given a few more meds to fix that . it took me 3 days to relearn how to walk after i got out of the ICU and it literally felt like my whole body was dying for the first day i was awake .

i feel bad putting my family thru all of this too . my grandma who i’m very close to had to watch me as i laid on what could’ve been my death bed . my mom had to push through going to work when her child was barely living . my little sister came to see me and was told what happened and i can tell she looks at me a little bit differently now . ok . so as bad as everything is , there’s good news . both my heart and lungs are completely back to normal now and my blood pressure / heart rate is also back to normal . the doctor told me i was a miracle case and i was more than lucky to not have died . anyway , that’s my life update . love you all . xoxo , Li <3