They are getting worse. Before they were just little black dots running by. Easily passed off as nothing but now…i can’t do it anymore. They look like they are going to kill me. Slowly. Bloody. No mercy. They run after me. They get in my face. No matter how many times I say it’s not real they won’t go away. I refuse to be alone at night now. That’s when they bother me the most. I hate my job. Why do I have to work nights. They stare at me with this grin. This toothy “supper” looking grin. I hate them.
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Can you maybe change your job? Try some pills? I mean having a job is important but it is much more important to not go insane… then you cant have a job anyway right? Please take care of your self, you are a nice person and you are worth it! Treat yourself like someone you are responsible for helping!
What kind of hallucination do you have? My friend has HPPD (hallucinogen persisting perception disorder) from taking too much acid. For him its just visual black snow and he said he got used to it and it doesnt bother him that much anymore.
1) no I can’t change my job.
2) no I can’t take pills
3) thank you for caring
4) ok no idea what HPPD is but I do know that out of the 5 senses I have problems with 4 of them but only really visual and auditory is biggest problem.
OK I’ll take a shot a this, I know when I was working nights most of the time i was in the dark or in artificial light., then when I’d wake up the bright sun would cause spots and shadows in my vision, I’ll call this the vampire syndrome! probably has nothing to do with it? Do you happen to wear a cross? 🙂
No not the same lol. And no I don’t. As a Wicca is wear a pentagram
Hey it was worth a shot! 🙂 My next suggestion was to sleep in a coffin! 🙂
That sounds like fun actually lol
It does! I’d have to have a over head TV and remote control however, hey even vampires need to keep up with technology!
Matter of fact that how I’d make a now a day vampire movie, the coffin would have all kinds of things including a mini bar!