I’ve been trying to kill myself for 15 years. If it was up to me, I would have killed myself back in 2007 when I was 11. I’d wish on my birthday candles each year to die before morning… But I couldn’t get a gun or figure out how to kill my self without shotgun to head…. so I waited until I was 18 so I could buy a gun legally and kill myself … but then all these random strangers started stalking me, I’ve been being sexually molested since I was 8 or 9, the only thing that has ever mattered to me is to commit suicide as soon as I could….. Now I’m 25, I cant believe I am still alive, it’s been a complete waste of time and I’m surrounded by the most hideous, most terrible people. And none of them are even my friends.. I thought I was done being sexually molested when I turned 17, but then I started being sexually molested again after I bought my shotgun but the hideous strangers stalked me and took it from me
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I’ve been trying to kill myself for 15 years. If it was up to me, I would have killed myself back in 2007 when I was 11. I’d wish on my birthday candles each year to die before morning… But I couldn’t get a gun or figure out how to kill my self without shotgun to head…. so I waited until I was 18 so I could buy a gun legally and kill myself … but then all these random strangers started stalking me, I’ve been being sexually molested since I was 8 or 9, the only thing that has ever mattered to me is to commit suicide as soon as I could….. Now I’m 25, I cant believe I am still alive, it’s been a complete waste of time and I’m surrounded by the most hideous, most terrible people. And none of them are even my friends.. I thought I was done being sexually molested when I turned 17, but then I started being sexually molested again after I bought my shotgun but the hideous strangers stalked me and took it from me
I’m too much of a coward to off myself, and not sure what I was meant to do in this life. God’s path for me, seems like a road to nowhere.