I first thought about suicide seriously in 2015 and had a failed attempt. I was glad in the moment it didn’t work but looking at all that has transpired since then, I think it was false hope. I don’t think there’s ever been a day I haven’t considered suicide. A few fleeting moments of pleasure, the rest bad moments.
Though they call it the “easy way out”, I can’t help but feel it’s terrifying to actually choose death. No matter how shit my life is, I can’t be sure that pulling the plug will end it or take me to another realm of existence that is worse. Maybe the Christian/Islamic versions of Hell are real and I’ll be tortured for eternity. Maybe, I might surprisingly end up in heaven, or better yet, fade into oblivion. But I don’t think I can take the chance. When it comes down to suicide, it really is terrifying.
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I’m with you in finding it terrifying. It’s an existential leap in the dark. I don’t think any of us can really be sure what the nature of reality is. The way I rationalise it is that there are risks of great suffering either way. So it makes sense to try and be prepared to end it if something even more terrifying emerges in life – for me becoming homeless, or threats of violence, or terminal illness. And until then to try and just minimise the suffering I experience here. But it’s hard when you’re miserable.
if u are scared that u are going to hell after suicide, maybe u should not bother to kill yourself and wait for a natural death
I’m the same. I attempted before but that day was different. I had accepted that if there’s a hell I’m already in it and that took all my fear of what may lay beyond death.
Nobody’s going to hell that’s a boogie man story, you will go back to where you were before you were born, if I recall it wasn’t to bad! 🙂 But stick around sit back and enjoy the ride best you can because it will end shortly like it or not.
Suicide often gets characterized as an easy out. There is nothing easy about it. Those who call it easy are likely expressing their disapproval it. They just wish it would go away without ever knowing why it exists.
We’ve all been dead before…. I don’t exactly see why we should worry about it. We have all spent more time being dead than we have spent being alive. I liked the time I spent being dead a lot better.
I suppose since life is nothing but chemical reaction, when you die – your body simply stops producing those chemical reactions. I.e. respiration, feeling, thought, heartbeat.