I was doing fine up until last week when I ran out of my anti-psychotic medication, risperidone. It was treating my suicidal and homicidal thoughts. I was even looking for a job and got an interview But now, I ran out and can’t do any of that because my thoughts have come back again. It only costs €14 but my parents can’t give me that money as they’re abroad and left me for a month. Damn, life’s hard.
nigelwilson
So I’m 21 and though an adult, still live with my parents. I’m on the autistic spectrum and was also diagnosed with mild psychosis by a psychiatrist. For many months, I was put on the anti-psyhotic Abilify because it help me manage me suicidal symptoms and I was able to interact with people normally when volunteering at a shop this summer. When I ran out and tried to get it refilled, my dad saw the script on the table, asked for any pills I had and demanded I throw them away as he said he didn’t believe in medication for mental issues.
He doesn’t understand that […]
I first thought about suicide seriously in 2015 and had a failed attempt. I was glad in the moment it didn’t work but looking at all that has transpired since then, I think it was false hope. I don’t think there’s ever been a day I haven’t considered suicide. A few fleeting moments of pleasure, the rest bad moments.
Though they call it the “easy way out”, I can’t help but feel it’s terrifying to actually choose death. No matter how shit my life is, I can’t be sure that pulling the plug will end it or take me to another realm of existence that is […]