I just always feel it in my conscience and it’s always in my head; that I’m gonna die young. It doesn’t even feel like I’m gonna reach 20 years old. I can’t even picture a future for myself, I can’t even imagine having kids, family around, I’m so reckless in life sometimes cuz I feel like “Why does anything even matter? I’m gonna die soon anyways.”
I just feel like I’m meant to die. I fucking hate living so much.
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I used to feel pretty much the same. I’ve never been reckless but I always thought I won’t make it to 20, because I didn’t see why I should.
Well now that number is 25, and I’m sure that after a few years it’ll be 30.
I’m surprised that I have made it to 25 I never will have a life that’s worth living but I’ll probably not die at a very young age…. I’m lazy