I feel like I’ve lived out my time of life. I find the world around me increasingly unfamiliar. It’s only natural, I suppose. The law of life – the old making way for the new. And I’m fine with that. But it’s happening all too suddenly for me. Too fast to grasp my new place among things. It’s like change accelerated manifold.
But it’s a universal phenomenon. Look at evolution; took us millions of years to get here and now they’re talking of bionic man coming this very century. Take climate change; for ages temperatures varied just a few degrees and now we’re looking at being cooked at 2 degrees higher this very century. Humans have been mostly hand to mouth since cavemen era, kept busy with work in order to survive and now they’re bringing AI to gradually take out most jobs by the end of this century.
I can’t relate to turns of events anymore. I’m not following any pop culture the way I used to. I’m not up to date with current affairs, tired of news. Not keeping up with latest tech. Not abreast with social dynamics like relationships.
It all points to my decaying psyche. That’s how growing old works, I guess, though I’m aging quite prematurely, poor me. Nah, that’s fine by me. I’m not enchanted with youth and beauty anyways, not anymore. I’m ready to be left behind in the darkness, stillness and silence of bygone time. Leave me in peace, restless lives! Let me die in peace…
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I’m still stuck with this miserable life because I am weak…if I were strong I wouldn’t have lingered for this long. Permanent solution to a temporary problem? Yeah, that might apply to someone experiencing an acute depression from something like the loss of a loved one, where perhaps with the passage of time the wound will heal. But if you have chronic depression for years, decades…then you want a permanent solution, not some stop-gap measure that just gets you through life so you can continue to suffer.