I hate that I have to live another day knowing that my ex boyfriend doesn’t care about me and doesn’t want me to talk to him…
I’ve unleashed so much erratic and irrational behaviour to him. I sometimes feel ok, but this guilt is constantly lingering inside me… I’m forever going to have to live with this guilt.
I want to genuinely apologize for all the hurt, pain, and suffering that I’ve caused him but I know he wouldn’t be interested in hearing it.
I am thinking that I should wait a few months to do this, but I am itching to do it now! So far I’ve learned about impulse control, and to think before you do things, to listen more often. This has kept me from reaching out to him again.
I just want this resolved NOW. But I am having to control myself. I really do not want to live with this guilt any longer. I have to wake up everyday knowing that he doesn’t give a fuck about me…