im done with therapy. im done with medication. there is no hope for me and that i am willing to accept that, although its not like i have much of a choice but to accept it.
Because ever since therapy started it’s done nothing but piss me off. Yesterday about half way through it I “became suicidal” (basically I went from I want to die to kill me now). If that’s what therapy is doing it’s clearly not for me. As for the medication, the first one literally made me insane and the second one made me sleep for 15-20hrs. I’m done being a damn guinea pig if this is the outcome of it.
I can relate to that. Therapy can bring up some pretty awful feelings. Do you think there might be something on the other side of that worth pushing through it for? Have you talked to your therapist about how hard you’re finding it?
It does seem to take a lot of people a while to find a balance of medication that suits them.
Saying that, I’ve quit both medication and therapy (many times) in the past, so I understand.
I’ll email you when I get home. Currently working. (God I swear that’s all I do. Nope that is all I do. I work anywhere from 12-18hrs a day (rough numbers dont quote me lol))
Yeah…I’m gonna be trying to get the medication straitened out then I’ll try the therapy again. My biggest problem is I haven’t accepted I have problems yet even though I’ve had them for years and they are pretty serious now. Basically my arm is rotting off but I swear it’s fine lol.
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How come?
Because ever since therapy started it’s done nothing but piss me off. Yesterday about half way through it I “became suicidal” (basically I went from I want to die to kill me now). If that’s what therapy is doing it’s clearly not for me. As for the medication, the first one literally made me insane and the second one made me sleep for 15-20hrs. I’m done being a damn guinea pig if this is the outcome of it.
I can relate to that. Therapy can bring up some pretty awful feelings. Do you think there might be something on the other side of that worth pushing through it for? Have you talked to your therapist about how hard you’re finding it?
It does seem to take a lot of people a while to find a balance of medication that suits them.
Saying that, I’ve quit both medication and therapy (many times) in the past, so I understand.
I’ll email you when I get home. Currently working. (God I swear that’s all I do. Nope that is all I do. I work anywhere from 12-18hrs a day (rough numbers dont quote me lol))
That sucks. I think that alone would be enough to push me over the edge.
Contract delivery driver…..what else can I do.
Hang in there 🙂
Yeah…I’m gonna be trying to get the medication straitened out then I’ll try the therapy again. My biggest problem is I haven’t accepted I have problems yet even though I’ve had them for years and they are pretty serious now. Basically my arm is rotting off but I swear it’s fine lol.