(technically day 11 because of yesterday but whatever im just counting days)
although im wondering whats the point. i already fucked up. i dont want to stop drinking and smoking up. but he will never be happy for as long as im doing it. i still think he would be better off without me. why cant he see that. why cant he just go away and forget about me.
repetitive conversation at this point. forget it. i know the answer. and i cant convince him. ive even tried to make him hate me and it wont work. of course making him hate me without upsetting him is damn near impossible
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I don’t know if Ive already told you this somewhere in this series, but if so, Ill tell you again.
A single flood dose of ibogaineHCL will permanently quench your cravings for alcohol and drugs that you are struggling to quit.
I myself did it to treat severe alcoholism. I was drinking a 26 or more each and everyday, unless there was work the next day, then I drank about half that. This went on for years.
After flooding with ibogaine nearly 6 years ago, Ive been sober ever since and it’s no struggle. I don’t ever crave it or even think about it really. I can be around people who are drinking and I don’t want any.
Im cured. No AA, no nothing. Just a psychedelic plant from Africa.
God’s medicine.
So there.
Do yourself a favour and find some online to order.. People will mail it to you. You must research how to do it properly. It is intense and will make your body helpless and bedridden for 1-3 days.
Interesting and also a little unnerving. Something to research anyways.
You friend, who wanted to have a drink with you, should still be happy, and should be able to understand slipping up for a day.
You didn’t screw the whole month up, you are just 12 days less 1 now, which is still good.
mountaingoat, as someone whos had horrible hallucinations in the past, i will so pass on a psychedelic. besides i dont exactly want to get better, not living in reality is nice.
abnormal.thoughts, yeah…he said he was still proud of me for making a new record 🙂
This psychedelic promotes mental health.
It’s been described as ‘ten years worth of psycho therapy’. It is always benevolent, unlike some popular psychedelics like mushrooms or LSD, where users can possibly have a bad trip.
” besides i dont exactly want to get better, not living in reality is nice.”
I don’t believe that.
Please stop suggesting it, it’s not happening and a suicide site isn’t exactly a place you should be pushing drugs. Keep suggesting it and I’ll tell admin.
Also you can believe what you please, I really don’t care about a stranger on the Internet. Your thoughts and opinions mean nothing to me.
mountaingoat, you should really stop suggesting that stuff. it can kill people.
That’s very interesting.
After I was saved by ibogaine, I came to realize it was the closest thing to the essence of Jesus Christ that Ive ever experienced.
Jesus can save you, is how the religion goes. Right?
Then to recall the stories in the New Testament of Jesus driving out demons, and when the people see the person who was granted deliverance, and they are now in their right mind, the people become afraid and ask Jesus to leave.
I never really understood that last part, but now I am seeing how that works. It’s just how some people are. All confused and afraid so they say stupid things that make no sense.
I will not stop suggesting ibogaine for addiction. Ive seen it work and have administered it personally to two other people. One for crack addiction, the other for alcoholism.
“It can kill people.”
Substance addiction is a bigger killer than ibogaine.
No I’d put it at about even. You should really do some research before you go around thinking it’s ok to kill people. But hey what ever floats your boat just stop suggesting it to me. I have better sh*t to do with my time then listen to bullsh*t.