today seems like a good day to be drunk.
the 17th and 18th was my mothers bday and anniversary (i can never remember which is which) my father messaged me. i didnt sleep last night so i feel like shit and i cant stop thinking about death. if anything a drink would do me good today
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I think it’s a good day to crawl under a rock and ignore everyone. Sadly that’s not an option, I have to manage my responsibilities as long as I’m alive.
I couldn’t find the energy to respond to yesterday’s post so this will be a combination response.
There are definitely days I wish I were alone and not married, where I could just be me and not care about anyone else, I don’t know if you are the same in this regard, but even though that’s what I want from time to time, I know I wouldn’t last a month without my family to keep me going.
Can you take a day away from them? Maybe just you and a friend?
P.S. good song.
my husband’s going to work on the trailer today and im staying home but other then today, not really. i spend 24/7 with him.
That’s way too much. You need a break from each other sometimes to keep growing as individuals.
yeah i know, and every time i suggest a break he freaks out saying we might as well just break up. which i understand why he thinks that but it doesnt necessarily mean that…i just need some room to breath. i spent some time alone a little bit ago and i basically just sat there watching dharma and greg while letting my head race. but being able to say it out loud is so much more peaceful then having to listen to it in my head because there are other people around.
Have you tried just saying you need some alone time to work on yourself? Not a break from him altogether, you can still talk every day but be away from each other throughout the day.
well thats the other problem. our job requires us to both be there
Well, that sucks. Sounds like days off should be alternated between each other and yourselves. He would probably be happier in the long run too. Relationships have a funny way of becoming controlling/possessive but are better when you find time for yourselves they are better.
he hopes things will get better once we move but i personally feel like it might be too late for that
If you don’t mind me asking, how long have you guys been together?
5 years
That’s a good amount of time. Hopefully you guys find a balance.
Day 15, no comments? That’s over 2 weeks. Great job.
That’s why theres no comments. I’ve been drinking the past 2 days because fuck it
Congrats on being sober! I’m clapping for you keep on at it. You are winning at life!!!!