Technically true i still havent had a drink. Although ill be honest…ive been high for the past few days. (He doesnt know…..yeah ill tell him….later.) for now id like to focus on the fact that today i figured out that i can stop drinking and smoking up outside of a recreational weekend thingy. Just not in my current situation. Once i get moved and i can do things i like again then ill be too busy to smoke up or drink plus my brain will be overall busy as well. Yes there will still be bad days but the ocassional bad day is better then everyday. The problem…that involves staying with my husband and id rather live on my own at this point. But if i live on my own then ill have to work and i wont have time. But if i stay with him he’ll be the one getting money and paying bills so i can do what i please while i get my bakery up and going (which i still think is a stupid idea of mine but whatever i guess)
Thoughts: every have one of those moments where you feel like youre being overdramatic and like you should just shut up? What if…..just hear me out. What if thats not the case. What if everyone else was the one b*tching and complaining, just making us feel like our pain means nothing when really they are just making their pain seem worse then it is. Just a possiblity.