Reading so many of the posts here one thing that seems to be a common thought process is that most of us realize that things will get better even if we can’t see it right now. We also realize that they won’t always be good.
I think that’s the issue. We know we have to go through pain over and over again in life and it’s unbearable to think about. I don’t know if the good is worth going through the bad.
Some have depression times longer or worse than others. Some last moments and moods switch, some last months or years with only small rays of light and hope. Personally, when my mood switches in an instant I don’t know how to handle it, it feels so surreal to go from dreaming of dying to just okay and knowing your dreams are going to come back.
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It’s ok and very normal to strive for the better. Of course you can’t accept a bleak existence. Why would you? We need to set goals in life, to dream, to believe that something wonderful will happen…. although I admit that it’s very difficult to expect positive things when you are caught in a deep depression and lack enough energy or life force as I call it.
I was the same and I even had daily abnormal thoughts as your username points out while struggling with mental illness, chronic fatigue, obsessive compulsive disorder, social anxiety, etc. I managed (with the help of God and natural remedies) to cure almost everything if not everything! Now, my life is full of meaning! And I wake up better and better although I admit that with the current global crisis (covid- 19) I had some really bad days too where I struggled to cope and even mentally survive.
Yes, a beautiful life is possible and much needed.
In my opinion, if you are a man and if you have these things:
-possibility for a nice job or career
-possibility to improve your outlook and your physical body (look more attractive for women)
-good health
-a couple of relationships (not necessarily good friends… just a few acquaintances).
If you have these things, yes, you can be happy.
And you can also wait for more and improve your life even more. It’s very normal and ok.
If only depression was circumstantial: I have all the things you mentioned, a few friends, healthy every way but mentally, a good job I used to love but now wish I could leave (I can’t because nothing will pay as well where I’m at and now this pandemic of course.)
Life is a roller coaster with many ups and downs. I think I have been at the highest point so I don’t know what to look forward to.
I grew up with a very religious family and I am happy that you found peace with god. I don’t subscribe to the god that is preached about since he is cruel and not very understanding or fair but I do believe there are beings greater than us, I just don’t think they care about us. I
Thank you for your answer. Fortunately although I strongly believe in the God from the Bible, I am not Christian. I subscribe to many Christian beliefs though. Cruel? This is what I thought too, this is what almost 99% of suicidal people believe at least at some point in their lives…. and with the current pandemic, chances are people will loose their religion even more…. but the truth is, the cloud of depression shuts the light and love of God from us. We are also extremely limited, as human beings, and we live on earth, where many of us experience famine, illness, limited options in life, boredom, lack of mental support, lack of understanding, etc. Fortunately, there is something much, much better than this on the other side, should we deserve a heaven. So, the one thing I am sure about, although not fully Christian, I will never be an atheist. It’s the greatest nonsense in my point of view.
“If only depression was circumstantial: I have all the things you mentioned, a few friends, healthy every way but mentally, a good job I used to love but now wish I could leave”
Except one thing…. You don’t have a religion (I think it comes from the Latin term “religare” – to bind to), which means to connect to, and without a religion you are not connected to something higher and of course depression comes. What can fill your inner void if not connection to God or perhaps enlightenment like in the Eastern religions?