I didn’t ask for life, just like everybody else it was imposed upon me. I can’t get suicide out of my head, it’s omnipresent within my train of thought, that’s the way a guy like me thinks, that’s my mentality, I tried everything to no avail, at the end of the day you cannot escape from yourself. I always knew deep down there was no hope but I procrastinated, the fruits of procrastination are intense punishment, life punishes procrastinators relentlessly. Why didn’t I take my life years ago? What the fuck was I thinking to continue with my life, I continued so my family wouldn’t get that phonecall.. ” he was found hanging in woodland”. Such a phonecall destroys families but it happens everyday, all over the world.
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This is spot on with my own thoughts on the matter.
The first time I wanted to kill myself and got caught it basically obliterated everything in my life, in the end things did end up better but to this day I regret that I was not successful because the longer you wait the worse it gets.
I’m glad things did get better for u albeit slightly. I also have an attempt on my resume namely sleeping pills when I was 29 to this day I regret not choosing a more lethal method.
I almost posted basically everything you said. For some moments I was shocked, this is what i was thinking. Its a strange feeling