Does anyone else feel like they have all these different sides to themselves that touch but don’t connect. Like putting on a different hat, or having a different personality at different times.
I can list off at least 10 of these I feel, sometimes I feel professional, humorless, or silly, sometimes I’m positive, hopeless, want help, talkative, introspective, spontaneous, adventurous, suicidal, studious, excitable, organized, planned out, and so on.
I’m sometimes touching on another piece of myself but I don’t register the world the same way and some of my sides don’t touch at all because they are so conflicting. I can relate things to my pieces but I am not that person telling that same story.
This is probably really confusing, sorry. I can’t really explain this, but I feel broken, only a part of the whole at any given time.
It doesn’t matter anyways except to confuse people in my social circles when I react so differently to certain things.
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I’m the same way. Not sure entirely what’s causing it, but it feels like my personality and interests can change spontaneously or depending on the environment I’m in.
Even when I’m on my own it feels like I can jump from one side to another. One version of me is blunt and stern, and will fight for a good cause. The other is childish and needs a lot of help doing basic tasks. Another is whimsical and dreamlike, enjoys being creative and sees amusement in the smallest things.
It feels like they’re all my traits, but my mind doesn’t register them as such. That there’s a barrier.
Even something as simple as outfit changes or hairstyles can be influenced by what personality I feel like.
Do you enjoy being this way? Do you see them as their own separate identities or a part of identity confusion?
You’re not alone and not crazy either. The brain does a lot of weird things. Has odd coping mechanisms.
I love your name 🙂 does it come with a meaning?
I’m glad to know I’m not alone, I don’t know how to view them, it’s like they are different personalities but at the same time it’s still part of me. It’s like I am the same person with a different point of view and interests every couple of hours maybe? Lol I feel like you explained it better. I just can’t be all of these people at the same time because they don’t agree with each other but I still know that’s is me.
Do I enjoy it? On occasion, yes, it’s nice to relate to so many perspectives, it’s easier to accomplish things and more exciting if I’m in the right hat. It’s also much more difficult if I’m in the wrong one and I can’t just switch them at will all the time and that’s frustrating, for instance, one day I might be excited to talk about science and the next I want nothing to do with it and it’s all just gibberish. I guess it keeps life interesting, who will I be in an hour? We’ll have to wait and see. Lol.
Do you enjoy it?
Kind of similar, I daydream a lot and I have all these alternate personalities. Most of them are the things I’m not, brave and social. Most of the time, I’ll find myself having just switched into one of them without realizing it. And then I have to make a conscious effort to be me. I’m actually pretty ok with being this way. I don’t love my real personality.
Yeah, I’m not sure what my “real” personality is, I am all of them and none of them.
It’s definitely a part of some developed coping skill, I’m sure there’s a reason to be this way.