30 years old, never had sex, never had a girlfriend, never had my own house, car, money, job, still living with my mother and grandmother, they don’t understand me, make my life hard, I take these antipsychotics for more than 10 years, all this time I’ve been suffering so much, I can’t connect with anybody, my neighbors suck. As a child and teenager life had ups and downs. I have problems because of these pills but doctors can’t help me. My father lives on a different street from the same neighborhood, he has his own problems. Both of my grandfathers are dead.
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It is possible to quit antipsychotics, but you need to do it very gradually. I spent a year coming off them. Lowered the dose a tiny bit. Waited till I had gotten used to it, then lowered it some more, etc.
The thing is, even off the drugs, life is not a piece of cake, in my experience.
Regarding the sex, what can I say, at least you are pretty much guaranteed to be 100% STD free – which is not a bad selling point, trust me.
I hope you find a way to improve your life (whatever that means to you.)
Thanks for replying. I succeeded one time some time ago to get off the pills for a couple of months but I eventually got back to taking them and until today I haven’t been able to quit them even though I tried to gradually lower the doses.
I failed to quit them multiple times because I went too fast. The last time I spent a long time on each level before lowering it further. Months, sometimes. But your neurons have grown extra receptors to compensate for the ones blocked by the medication, so when you remove the medication, you’re left with an oversensitive brain, which is why people relapse.
Anyway, it took me years after quitting to get used to doing without the medication and TBH, five years later I’m starting to question whether I made a mistake. Sometimes I miss being desensitized.
Being STD-free doesn’t compare to the emotional and physical pain of not getting a chance to be held by someone who truthfully loves you.
You know what to do.
What are you thinking about?
Sorry about the pills. Lots of people do report serious trouble with them. Maybe your story will help someone take a safer path. Somebody told a story like yours and that is how I knew to try just about anything safe before taking the meds. Thanks to somebody on a forum (?) I never took the meds.