Today was a bad day. Symptoms are very bad. They get worse and not better. Crazy to think how even 1 month ago things weren’t as bad. 6 months ago the symptoms first started. At this rate, I’ll be dead in another 6 months. Begging for the hospital and my doctor to help me. Admit me to hospital and treat me properly. Still waiting for the neurologist to give me an appointment. I’m convinced they think I’m making it all up in my head. I wish I was. I want to make it through this illness and get better. I have so much to lose. I’m always the strong one. I don’t know how much longer I can keep it up. Please God, please heal me. I love you but this hurts. I’m afraid. I don’t want to be afraid anymore.