Home General Someday it will all be over…
Report Post

Someday it will all be over…

by Wisp

Not suicide related

Wouldn’t I only hope? Oh, wouldn’t I only hope? I don’t want to participate in this world. I don’t want to be part of it. I need new friends, I just sadly don’t really want any, nor do I want to spread my blight and misery to anyone else. I wonder why my ex still bothers to live, he quite clearly doesn’t like life and people don’t really want much to do with him. I can only say that he’s made himself lonely. He didn’t have to throw those friends away who disagreed with him on ‘coronavirus’. He didn’t have to throw away others because they ‘don’t do enough with their lives’, which is ironic, because he doesn’t do much with his own.
He should just admit that he’s full of misery…
I’m sitting here looking at online courses. I suppose if they weren’t all super expensive, I would’ve started a while ago? I literally don’t want to do anything with my life. Regarding jobs, I don’t really want to work unless I have to, and nobody is going to employ me anyway, I’m in a small town and remember due to corona there was a bunch of mass sackings.

I feel super insecure in the place I’m living now with my mum because it’s only a 2 year transitional lease. How do people not feel insecure in rentals? Don’t you worry about being evicted over some ‘reason’ all the time, even if it’s not even a reason, and the landlord just decides that they don’t like you?

Why am I still around, I have no purpose here at all… I almost feel like saying, overall, I’ve actually had some very good moments in my life, and, I’m ready to depart…

2 comments
0

Related posts

2 comments

Her0Reb313 9/25/2020 - 4:52 am

We are all here because we are feeling “weak’. But you know what? I think it takes courage and strength to reach out to the interweb and not know who is going to reach back. Especially on a site that which draws mentally disturbed people. (Depending on what your definition of mentally disturbed might be.) I’m awake at nearly 4 am talking to air like i’m waiting for Trinity to finally find me. Instead, here ‘I’ am, reaching out instead. You are not alone!

Our stories are different, but we aren’t so different. The worries are still the same. We are only human after all.

One thing i’ve learned a long time ago is if the ship is going down and you’re not the captain, no need to go down with it!

Free yourself from the things you can no matter how hard and unable you may feel. Sometimes i comfort zone is the only thing keeping us back, keeping us from making life changing discoveries.

Be your own story.

I hope you find your way

a1957 9/26/2020 - 4:34 pm

“Why am I still around, I have no purpose here at all… I almost feel like saying, overall, I’ve actually had some very good moments in my life, and, I’m ready to depart…”

Eloquently stated. That was me over and over for over 50 years. It was what I meant to say but could never find the words.

Leave a Comment