how’s quarantine for y’all? it’s kinda shitty for me, i don’t have easy access to booze or tobacco as i’m living with my family rn. back here after a month. overthinking should be my middle name fr. from over analyzing every text of hers to deciding the title of this rant, i’m a confused mf. i came across this website four years back when i was 15, fuck i’ve grown a lot since then. nothing new in my life rn, online uni is trash (engineering). i met some nice people online in may/june, caught feelings for a girl who lives 2700 kms away. apparently she likes someone in canada and has/had a thing with him from the past three months. but we flirt/get cute in dms. i know the guy kinda well but don’t have anything against him. some days, she gets overly affectionate but the other days are filled with dry and one worded replies. a couple of close, mutual friends told that she might be considering me as a “second option” or contingency plan, as you may call it since my uni is pretty close to where she lives. that part kinda hurt like a ***** ngl. but again, it’s me. i’m a fucking idiot when it comes to relationships or crushes or whatever. it’s like i KNOW i’m gonna get hurt but i put myself through it intentionally.
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At least she thinks you’re cute. ;D
Sounds like she’s not sure. You’re far away~ how would that even work
If you’re able to take her out, do it and talk about deeper things. That’s how the natural-i didnt ask to kiss her- moments come
making her laugh is important too lol
We all need distractions in our lives. You do you. I mean we are all here because we want to kill ourselves right? If this gives you hope or happiness one day out of 50 or 1 hour out of 21, then in the end wasn’t it worth it. Human contact, regardless of how it happens is so important. Essentially we are social creatures, even the biggest hermits among us come here just to read. Lurk. Soak in that there are other people in this world who may, on some level, understand 1/10th of what they are feeling.
There are days I just read. Read and read. Think, welp I’ve been there but I really don’t have it in me to comment. But I’m here reading because someone has to bear witness to human beings, even the ones who just want to leave the pain behind.
Aw damn it sucks when someone just considers you as a ‘second option’. Well. Not sure how relationships are meant to work especially during this pandemic. I’ve seen my ex a couple of times and we both live on opposite ends of the world.
Anyway sorry that quarantine has been shitty. I’m personally not in quarantine.