That’s hard, going through high school without a close friend. Especially when you’re faced with bratty schoolmates and nobody gets it on your side.. you know?

My best friend went through the same thing. He hated school. It felt like shit going everyday. His grades were horrible, he cut himself, he starved himself-
He had a girlfriend for a year… All was good,but she was really manipulative/charming. She left him for some indie punk with emo hair and filled his head with lies, for no reason~ She spread rumors about my friend/claiming he raped her/beat her etc… He received anonymous phone calls with death threats… People glared… Her parents talked to other parents, it was a nightmare.
So he thought about suicide, and told me he was going to hang himself. I was sort of close with his mom, and I told her about it.

That’s when the big conversation happened: Dropping out/ home schooling/ trying to go back to public school. The choices.
His parents were against him taking classes at home, because they thought he wouldn’t learn to talk to other people. (which isn’t true)
They let him do schooling at home after he persisted with them, basically begging them. I haven’t heard him cry in all of my years knowing him, but he was absolutely miserable.
He did well enough/ graduated with a normal diploma.
We’re 26 now – He has two books of poetry out and has been published in two magazines and another author’s book. (it sounds big, but really just a humble start to his writing career. trial and error there, too. he hated his first book of poetry.)
But, my point is that you definitely aren’t the only one who feels like that. And public school isn’t for everyone, either.

I’m here if you want to vent, sorry this was lengthy. In times like this, it’s good to connect and point out why you’re unique and why you’re worth pushing past high school to start in the big world.