It was shambolic

Imagine walking into a Doctors surgery on a Saturday afternoon a week before Christmas during a pandemic, drug seeking being the reason, this is bad, your first visit to this surgery and your gonna mention drugs, this is real bad, the worst thing you can say to a Doctor is anything concerning sleeping pills, maybe opioids but i dont really know anything about painkillers.

This was the reality of the situation I found myself in and there was no way out, this was gonna be awkward. I gave myself a 30 percent chance of this working out, i walked into the surgery 5 mins before my appointment, to my horror there were 3 ppl already in the waiting room, this meant it was gonna be at least an hour before i was seen, i wanted to get this over with as soon as possible, now i had at least an hour stewing in the waiting room with these thoughts to contend with. The Doctor walked in to the waiting room, “Character teaches above our wills” wrote the writer and  I could see her character, Strictness,Strictness personified, as strict as they come, this was going from bad to worse, this wasnt gonna fly, she wasnt gonna go for it, i lowered my chances from 30 percent to 10 percent, the hour dragged in, at last i was called in. We exchanged pleasantries, her eyes surveying me apprasingly, the uncomfortable moment had come and could be deferred no longer , ” so, what can i do for you today?” she asked in a strict posh voice,  i reeled of a tale involving insomnia and mentioned sleepers, her face winced as i knew it would  ” i dont prescribe sleeping pills in this practice, sleeping pills are a controlled scheduled drug, im not a great sleeper myself, there is this app called headspace i use, i would recommend it to you, its meditation techniques, it should help your sleeping problem, okay?” The rug had been pulled from under me, i tried to stay loose and with complete shamelessness said ” perhaps in addition to this advice about the headspace app sleeping pills might not be a bad idea”  She said ” there is this hormone called Melatonin, this will improve your sleep, and I have no problem prescribing it, but Sleeping pills No”. I was totally in the wrong here, this was textbook drug seeking conduct on my part and she was totally within her rights to say no, if I was a Doctor id say no, however i put these thoughts aside and with a heavy heart and complete shamelessness for a third time i mentioned sleepers   ” perhaps in addition to the Melatonin and the headspace app sleeping pills might not be a bad idea” Quite unexpectedly what looked like a smile broke out on her face but i wasnt sure because of the mask. ” okay, ill prescribe some sleeping pills, but i hate giving out these drugs, theyre very closely watched and monitored, I dont like doing this”, and that was the end of it. Who behaves like this on a Saturday before Christmas? This is not normal behaviour.