Hey chen. I know I told you can look at any post, but maybe skip this one. Just a thought.
I feely oddly content just being her friend. I told her how I feel and she gave me an answer. Sure I was sad that she said she didn’t feel the same way, but I understood. What with everything going on in her life. Yet, I’m still happy I know her. I still like talking to her and I still care about how she’s doing. I know that in a small part of my mind, I’m hoping things will change, but I need to understand that they won’t. I need to let go of her in that way. But I don’t want to let go of her as a friend. I sometimes daydream about us being together. I know that isn’t healthy per se, but I can’t help how I feel. Hopefully overtime, my mind will simply grow accustomed to reality. Regardless though, I still want to be there for her. I don’t know. Maybe I’m looking at this from the wrong angle. Maybe it’s a bad idea to try and hope that being friends is enough. I don’t know.