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screaming (on the inside)

by just.forget.it

I’ve officially ran out of motivation. I’m too tired and I’m sick of living. Everyone I’ve ever loved hates me and that’s okay.

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Robert77 12/15/2020 - 10:45 pm

I can relate for I have become very weary of life. I may not have been hated by everyone in my life but most all of them have turned their backs on me when I needed them the most. The person I loved the most definitely hates me with a passion.

sevsrose 12/30/2020 - 8:30 am

Yes I feel so tired of life too, and the same for my loved ones, 99% have turned away, and I drove away my soulmate, he definitely hates me as well. This life is an endless abyss of suffering.

JudgeMeNot 12/16/2020 - 1:46 am

You know what must be done.

notsuicideschild@gmail.com 12/16/2020 - 3:32 am

What must be done?

notsuicideschild@gmail.com 12/16/2020 - 3:32 am

What must be done?

ThouShallSee 12/16/2020 - 3:42 am

Hmmm i dont know if this will help but. Fight and keep fighting because at the end of the war/battles you’ll feel better stronger and more Confident than before

Sbilko 12/16/2020 - 2:10 pm

I have a video, perhaps it can help you, please do check it out: youtu.be/9QiE-M1LrZk

So, the thing is that the more we do dopamine-rewarding things, the less motivation we feel to do everything else. I have been there, when I was playing 1 game for 1 month almost non-stop, and everything felt so hard, and I felt so tired.

If that’s what you want to combat, I have some resources which really help me:
getcoldturkey. com
And the “Olauncher” app from the google play store.
ColdTurkey is almost un-circumventable, which is why I love it. And the latter lets me see only the relevant apps in my phone.
Of course, it’d be prefearable that I don’t use Internet nor electronics, but Uni makes it necessary.

Please, do use these tools in order to gain a little distance from doing dopamine-heavy things, so that you can have a little more, clarity and focus in order to sort things out.

I once found all my future plans shattered, so I felt really disoriented and confused. I felt like a person drowning in the middle of the ocean. I felt a void inside because of the lack of meaning, the lack of purpose. Yet I knew that I have only 1 life, so I searched for meaning, for the answers to all my questions, and found them all. Now I feel in order, the void inside is no more, and I look onwards with hope.

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