One month clean. After almost two years of heavy use, driving me deeper and deeper down a hole of insanity and clouded thinking, cyclones of emotion and extremely bad judgment calls, today is one freaking month clean. The world is a boring, banal, and predictable place when you’re sober, and for right now, that’ll work.
And eight hours of solid sleep last night helped. God I needed that.
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Nice
Thanks Jack.
im happy for you
Thank you, Openroad.
Being sober will always be a life long struggle. Ive been sober 12yrs, even tho i did have 1 night of weakness 2yrs ago. Not counting it because i didnt turn it into a habit was literally a 1 night thing with an exbf who brought the stuff over. And sorry to say but life is and always will be boring unless u have a job that requires traveling everywhere constantly and never ending funds cuz ya know, more to do when u got the dough to do it.
Congrats on 12 years, that’s an achievement! One night of weakness in that long a stretch of time isn’t bad at all. I seem to cycle through periods of sobriety and heavy use, but am still trying to find the willpower to recognize the harm of the heavy use stages. I haven’t quite mastered that. When I come out of them back into “the real world”, it’s like waking from a bad dream into the normal, but boring, world, which is ok.