I think I’m settling in on method. Given that no one is at all interested in preserving my body, I’m thinking about killing my liver. Yes, I’m planning to drink to death. It might take decades, but it is relatively certain.
Right now I’m at the stage where I need a drink to get through the day, meaning I should be on to full day drinking alcoholic within a few years, non functional a few years after that. The difference is that I’m not keeping it any level of secret, my doctor knows, my therapist knows, they don’t have anything better to give me. I’ll take the slight numbness, the total black that only this can bring me. It’s a trial run for death, and if last night is an indicator, I’m getting reasonably good at it.
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liver failure is a pretty painful way to go out..
Yeah Alcohol would feel harsh.
This way honestly sounds very very slow and painful, though you probably already know this. And honestly, constantly buying alcohol will be expensive. The money you pay for it will pile up, and cause more problems in the long run. Not recommended
My dad drunk heavily for years (most likely still does…. ) He could drink a box of wine or a pack of 30 cans of beer in a day. He has cirrhosis and lots of scarring apparently, he didn’t stop drinking after the doctor told him that so I suppose his liver would eventually fail.
Everyone else has pretty much covered the reasons why slow alcohol poisoning is a bad idea. I wanted to add the perspective of someone who has tried this method. For 2 years or maybe it was 4 I can’t remember, I drank a 750ml bottle of vodka every day.
TV shows and movies Leaving Las Vegas and even Casablanca like to romanticize the idea of drinking yourself to death. There’s nothing romantic about it. First thing that happens is you get fat. Alcohol is calorically the equivalent of sugar, so a 750ml bottle of vodka is like a birthday cake every day. Happy birthday to me right. Let me repeat: you get fat. And ugly.
Liver damage to the point of fatality takes decades. So by choosing this method you’re agreeing to live for 20 or even 30 more years like this. No thanks right?
The most likely and common death due to alcohol is it will send you into such a deep suicidal tunnel that you’ll get drunk one night and without thinking you’ll just blow your brains out. That itself is appealing to a lot of us. Liquid courage . But as for actual death by liver damage, I’m being completely serious, it would be just as effective and “fun” to eat a birthday cake every day, get diabetes and die in 20 years.
I missed mentioning it; I already have had high blood pressure. It really wouldn’t take much more nicotine, alcohol and caffeine to finish my diseased heart off. There’s no romance….. I have 60 years to rid myself of, the more of them I am blacked out the better as far as how I feel now. Then one day I’ll have a heart attack and hopefully so far from a hospital that will be the end…. . if not there is always a stroke. Yes, it’s going to hurt, quite a bit. on the other hand, there might be some entertaining moments on the spiral down….. if I want to hurry it I could always get into harder drugs.