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Why am I alive?

by Die555

Hello, so let’s just start this off with a “I should be dead right now” I have no idea why I’m still alive. My girlfriends in the past have cheated on me and my girlfriend now likes someone else and hates me. My family told me to kill myself many times in the past and doesn’t care about me. I’m alone and by myself. I’ve tried many MANY times in the past and failed. Every. Single. Time. The closest I’ve ever come to death is a car accident in 2017 and I was in a 8 month coma. God only KNOWS how I came out of THAT. I should of died right there, on the damn street where I laid. But I didn’t and I’m still confused on why. Can someone explain to me why am I still here? Cause I’m just about done living life.

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rayonhousefly 3/15/2021 - 2:18 am

As someone who’s also experienced an nde, if you find the answer let me know. Getting cheated on never quite loses its sting I imagine though.

I could give you the whole “the universe must have a bigger plan for you” spiel, but fuck I’m tired of that myself. All I can say I guess is, who knows? As deep in the hole as I am right now, I can still logically admit to myself that I really don’t know what’s going to happen in a week, a month, a year, hell maybe even a decade if I’m lucky. Maybe you can admit the same thing to yourself?

I’m not saying you need to, or even that you should, but it helps me bear my way through the darkest of nights now and again, so, maybe?

blue_dude15 3/15/2021 - 2:24 am

As rayonhousefly said, who knows?

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