I wish I had the guts to kill them. I wish I had it in me. They were allowed to be abusive throw shit at and smack and threaten and terrorize me all they want while they hold my ssc an other crap hostage on me and force me to work for them as cheap labor and shove me around telling me what worthless shit I am all the manipulative crap and everything else while they get away with it all and not a god damn thing out there gives a shit. I hate how fucking low I went to make money under their noses, what a loser and a disgusting pos I am. I wish I had the guts to and drag it out slowly. I hate how much of my life was lost to this. I hate that I missed the chance to get out sooner with a real chance of a future when I had the chance like a stupid idiot. I hate every fucking thing.