I’ve only recently figured out I have an auto immune problem, I confirmed through a test, though I know I’m going to have many more tests run. I’ve had this pain (prostate, arthritis, pain in veins) since I was 24, off and on, the worst pain is in my prostate, it’s so bad I can’t imagine living like this for a long period of time, it’s called chronic non bacterial prostatitis. Thankfully I found cures that kept it at bay but after a 5 year stint of drinking alcohol I think I’ve messed my gut up enough to where I think I’m stuck with this severe pain and I’m not sure how much longer I can live with it. I’m not depressed but I am scared of death, it’s a fear I’ve had for a very long time minus when I was suicidal from depression for a few years, the same time I abused alcohol severely. I am going to see some functional medicine doctors but I’m unsure of if it will help and I’m not strong enough to live with this kind of pain. I’ve talked with my parents, my gf, and my sister about ending my life and they are not in favor of it, my sister cried last night after I told her how I will achieve my goal. All I want to do is spend some time with my family before the pain gets too much for me to bear which has happened in the past.
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I had prostatitis and was cured completely, I dont know if it was the version you speak of, but in my case a visit to a urologist sufficed. The urologist prescribed proscar to reduce the prostate to normal size with Augmentin to eliminate the infection. After four months on both drugs I was 100 percent cured not 90 but a 100 so some forms of prostatitis are perfectly curable. Maybe mention those drugs with the urologist if you haven’t already. This was 15 years ago so there might be newer versions.
I think mine is caused by leaky gut or metabolic endotoxemia and I don’t think there is a cure, I mean some people can be cured but I think I’m too far gone and am not willing to live in this type of pain the rest of my life. I know the cause wasn’t only drinking but I beat myself up about being an alcoholic for 5 years, I feel like I’ve destroyed my life.