We all die alone. More or less. Maybe someone is there to hold your hand at the end. But you are alone in experiencing death. It’s scary, but it’s the same for everyone.
What I’m doing is living alone, for however long I live, and that fact makes me so much sadder. I will never connect with anyone. I will never care for anyone. I will never let anyone into my life. If I live a normal lifespan, no one will come to my funeral.
It’s such a waste. But I just can’t. I can’t be real with anyone, ever. I can’t be ‘myself’, because ‘myself’ is a fucking asshole. I am not fit for human company.
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How is the real you? Im sure if you gave it a try with the next person, they wouldnt think youre an ahole. N its true we all die alone because thats just how its gotta be.
i understand how u are feeling. really i do, but then again, ur true self is an “asshole “ right? i don’t believe that. i believe that u urself not hiding anything is the most significant thing u can do for urself. if that makes sense. what i’m trying to say is u shouldn’t gaf what people think, and as hard as it , u should learn to be u. because im sure that real u, is just as amazing.