It’s getting more and more difficult to keep going. I’m trying to at least clean my depression mess but I’ll either be set back or I’ll find something that will remind me of a horrible time. It’s not like I’ve had any good period in my life – the majority has been trauma. I’ve had a few friends but the trauma always overshadows everything good in my life.
“Middleschool will be better” and then it’s not, “high-school will be better” and then it’s not, “college will be better” and then it’s not, and I’m unable to continue due to a physical disability that threatened me with dropping out through the entirety of high-school. Instead I dropped out during college.
I found an old book advertising the art college I wanted to go to, that everyone told me not to go to. If I was gonna have to drop out, i really wish I’d gone there instead and at least have done something I loved. Now I have no money, no chance at a job, no chance at getting into the art college, no future.
It’s not like i could survive at an art college even if I could go. I’ve heard you need a certain level of skill going in, and I’m not good enough.
I dont know how to be good enough to survive and get out of this damn house. I’m so tired.
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It may seem unrelated but can you tell me how old you are? You don’t need to answer your real age, just the year like in your 20, 30.
I’m in my 20s.