Almost 9.5 years. Ha. My mental health has officially reached a low low.
Bull shit attempts. So many. In the 9 years. Now…im just tryna hide this void.
I run warm but lately im always freezing looking for anything to comfort me
I dont even care
I almost crash my car everytime i drive now and i dont even do it intentionally it just happens and instincts kick in and recorrect
I predicted the mass depression from the pandemic
Transitioning to work at home
I learned recently the free time that it gives me
Alcohol
Excessive caffeine
Weed
Pills
.. Meth
I just push it all into my system through the day that by end…im not even me.
I wonder what day i just wont wake up and this time thats not even the goal
Bull shit attempts. So many. In the 9 years. Now…im just tryna hide this void.
I run warm but lately im always freezing looking for anything to comfort me
I dont even care
I almost crash my car everytime i drive now and i dont even do it intentionally it just happens and instincts kick in and recorrect
I predicted the mass depression from the pandemic
Transitioning to work at home
I learned recently the free time that it gives me
Alcohol
Excessive caffeine
Weed
Pills
.. Meth
I just push it all into my system through the day that by end…im not even me.
I wonder what day i just wont wake up and this time thats not even the goal
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That’s hell of a long time. Whatever happened 9.5 years ago, it still keeps you in its grasp. It is hard moving forward with such a weight. If you want to talk, I’m here. I can relate to such a long time of keeping it all in.