i forget when i last posted here; most of my days lately go like that lol. it feels like i have things to get off my chest but honestly nothing comes to mind, kind of like someone put a blanket on top of everything that i just don’t have the strength to lift, which is frustrating.

lately i haven’t been sleeping much; honestly i don’t know why. i do feel lethargic and tired enough to sleep, but i just can’t. things look so confusing lately in my brain, it’s left me kinda disoriented.

it keeps getting more difficult, and i don’t know how to deal properly, much less if i’ll be able to hold on this time. probably will.