I was meant to be better, so much better.
I’ve been happy, so much happier.
but it always comes back, the sadness, it’s overwhelming.
the urge to kill myself just doesn’t leave, it comes back screaming and fighting.
I don’t want to die
but I need to die
I need to.
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I feel like it’s a problem of finding somewhat of an emotional equilibrium… What I mean by that is that, after being happy, very happy, very often comes the feeling of being sad, or very sad… Getting to that state of equilibrium is in my opinion achieved through avoiding things that you know that make you emotional and doing things that make you immunte to mood swings. And it’s your job to find what makes you emotional and what does the contrary. I’m not criticizing being emotional, and I’m not saying that being always emotionally unfazed is good. There’s a time for being emotional, but if that goes on for too long then you often end up tired.
I’m not sure if I addressed your issue or if what I said is a solution for you, but maybe