I do sometimes curse the luck that gave me this diseased fucking brain. But yeah, when I feel good like today I can appreciate the good parts of my illness. I’m so much more self aware than anybody I know. I know my moods inside out. I don’t make big decisions outside the 40 odd days a year I feel sane. I’m not blundering from one emotional crisis to the next like so many people do all their lives. Like I did in the past. Now I just need to find a cure to make my 40 days 365. Days like this I am hopeful I will.
I envy going out and feeling comfortable in my own skin… Sometimes, I want to take my ex girlfriend out on the town and stray until 7 am like we used to.
We’re just not connected anymore. There’s no spark. I thought we’d get married. She’s too abusive sigh
Anyway
If you’re feeling envy browsing others’ social media, you’re not living life because neither are they. Their shit’s only partially true, like a scrapbook. Nobody puts a photo of the divorce in the scrapbook.
You know what’s odd? When someone’s relationship is particularly horrible, they spend their time trying to make it look good on a website. It baffles me. I don’t understand it.
I deleted mine long ago. My depression and isolation issues outnumber the benefits of connecting with old friends with a friend button. … I’m too isolated already, why dwell on what I’m missing with what it used to be. People get married, and you’re stuck thinking about what went wrong when you had your* time with them a few years prior….
I’m not interested in a love relationship so I can’t say what that’s like… But the part about being comfortable in my own skin finally and the social media? Yep… I deleted mine very long ago as well. It’s not good for us, who see some deeper meaning than it actually is, it’s all a show. Well, I don’t want to see that, I’m quite occupied with my own shit-show. Not sure about you, but I couldn’t post anything worthwhile either, I never went out anyway. My cat died so I couldn’t post about him either. Best to stay clear and not let others pressure one to make another account. You seem to want a relationship with someone special, I really wish someone would come along for you.!
Look, I don’t have a problem with you, hell, I just recently got back here. But admins have their reasons for taking measures. Maybe someone just understood your intentions wrong, it’s the internet, it can happen, we can’t hear the way someone underlines words or watch their posture. You attacked me in another post, even though I didn’t say anything bad towards you. If you like to keep things light and give out hope, that is your thing and it’s okay, I just don’t always agree with that approach. Not everyone here needs to be cheered up. Again – no hate towards you.
But I know for a fact you aren’t the type to quote yourself and meme it and seem it to your profile picture…. I knew a guy once…. That’s when it’s embarrassing… a guy like him admitting he’s jealous of everyone else… what a prick
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I do sometimes curse the luck that gave me this diseased fucking brain. But yeah, when I feel good like today I can appreciate the good parts of my illness. I’m so much more self aware than anybody I know. I know my moods inside out. I don’t make big decisions outside the 40 odd days a year I feel sane. I’m not blundering from one emotional crisis to the next like so many people do all their lives. Like I did in the past. Now I just need to find a cure to make my 40 days 365. Days like this I am hopeful I will.
Hey, at least you’re accepting it. And different brains mean different “superpowers”, so to say. Hope you get the 365 or even just half of it!
If pessimism was a superpower… I hope you’re doing better. Have a nice day.
Yeah I do. I like to think of myself as a universal well-wisher but deep down I know I’m an envious rat.
Yeah, me too pal… Smile on the outside, die on the inside.
I envy going out and feeling comfortable in my own skin… Sometimes, I want to take my ex girlfriend out on the town and stray until 7 am like we used to.
We’re just not connected anymore. There’s no spark. I thought we’d get married. She’s too abusive sigh
Anyway
If you’re feeling envy browsing others’ social media, you’re not living life because neither are they. Their shit’s only partially true, like a scrapbook. Nobody puts a photo of the divorce in the scrapbook.
You know what’s odd? When someone’s relationship is particularly horrible, they spend their time trying to make it look good on a website. It baffles me. I don’t understand it.
I deleted mine long ago. My depression and isolation issues outnumber the benefits of connecting with old friends with a friend button. … I’m too isolated already, why dwell on what I’m missing with what it used to be. People get married, and you’re stuck thinking about what went wrong when you had your* time with them a few years prior….
I’m not interested in a love relationship so I can’t say what that’s like… But the part about being comfortable in my own skin finally and the social media? Yep… I deleted mine very long ago as well. It’s not good for us, who see some deeper meaning than it actually is, it’s all a show. Well, I don’t want to see that, I’m quite occupied with my own shit-show. Not sure about you, but I couldn’t post anything worthwhile either, I never went out anyway. My cat died so I couldn’t post about him either. Best to stay clear and not let others pressure one to make another account. You seem to want a relationship with someone special, I really wish someone would come along for you.!
I was with my former for 4 years.
We fell in love. I’m actually not “interested” in “finding” anyone.
Hopefully you meant that in a nice way. I gave someone a compliment here when they were being hard on themselves, and the admin changed my email.
They always do. Even though I didn’t deserve it. Assumptions….
If you can’t love yourself first, social media will get to you.
I applaud you addressing the actual issue. A lot of people aren’t aware of their own jealousy/envy or where it stems from.
Look, I don’t have a problem with you, hell, I just recently got back here. But admins have their reasons for taking measures. Maybe someone just understood your intentions wrong, it’s the internet, it can happen, we can’t hear the way someone underlines words or watch their posture. You attacked me in another post, even though I didn’t say anything bad towards you. If you like to keep things light and give out hope, that is your thing and it’s okay, I just don’t always agree with that approach. Not everyone here needs to be cheered up. Again – no hate towards you.
And thank you, I’m very good at self-reflection.
But I know for a fact you aren’t the type to quote yourself and meme it and seem it to your profile picture…. I knew a guy once…. That’s when it’s embarrassing… a guy like him admitting he’s jealous of everyone else… what a prick