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I’m so ugly. I cut on my thighs and boobs and I’m so ugly. I’m so scarred, my skin doesn’t feel the same. It’s so hideous. No one could ever love me with them, they’d just be reminded how ugly I am everytime they saw me. I’m disgusting. I just wish I could be pretty again, I wish people could love me again. I just want someone to love me, I ruin everything I touch though. And I don’t even have a reason to stop, my scars will never go away. I’ll remain unlovable no matter. At least the cutting won’t let me down. The moment people share their love with me I turn the love poisonous. I’m poisonous. I’m ugly. I’m unlovable. I’m worthless.
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There is a black fog which descended over your mind. Everything required to lift it is within you, laying dormant. You will need to go back within your minds memories, right back to the beginning of when this first began. Then, research the hell out of what you are up against.
Only YOU have the power to turn this around. Good luck !!
I know what it feels like to not feel wanted and wanting to be loved. It can really bring down your self esteem and make you feel you’ll always be alone with no one wanting to be around you. I started to believe that the only way I could find someone that would cherish and love me is to love myself. To do the things I’ve enjoyed doing and just focus more on myself first. Something done in baby steps of course. It may take some time or even longer depending on your situation. If you need someone to talk to, my email is: morganb58@yahoo.com. Best of luck on your journey.
I think we all deal with anxiety/regrets and feelings that trigger us. The key is to try to direct the actions into an either healthy or at least non (self) harmful way.
Beauty is mostly subjective and sometimes we undervalue our worth. If our life isn’t going the way we hope we feel like ‘losers’ and feel inferior to others.
Actually when I looked my best near 20 yrs old, I was also at one of my lowest points and so I wasn’t able to take advantage of the fact that girls I found to be very attractive were into me. I managed to date a few, but far less than my true potential.
But the time I felt better about myself and matured, I didn’t get as many opportunities, esp. since I was either studying or working all the time. Sadly I wasted my youth chasing my dreams and missed out on get a great gf/wife, one of my biggest regrets.
Life is short-it doesn’t feel like it at each moment, esp. when we’re at work and want to get out of there, but before you know it, years and decades fly by.
So the key is to focus on yourself first of all. Try to become the best person that you can be. The more great qualities you bring to the table the more attractive you are to others.
And I’ve seen everything under the sun, hot girl/nerdy guy and vice versa, even fat dudes getting ok women. So there is always hope for all of us.
As the saying goes in basketball, you’ll miss every shot that you don’t take. Meaning that we have to take chances in life, sure there will be some or lots of rejection, but eventually you might find someone you click with.
You’re also not alone, I’m in the same boat and I’m sure many others. I’m in the process of finding a new place so once my life is more settled I’ll be focusing on getting back in shape and then finding a good life partner. I may have a good 20 yrs left, (assuming I don’t check out sooner), so I want to make the most of it.
I feel esp. now I’m walking a tight-rope and there are troubles and traps all around me, so I’m just hoping that I “get to the other safe side.” Once I’m there I think my life will be a lot better, esp. next year if everything I do goes accordingly to plan.
Also good to set goals for yourself to help you strive for a better place in life.
have a girls day and treat yourself. salon stuff, or tan, or do a little nutrition thing like grapes here an apple there. Little stuff.
control a narrative by listing things you like about yourself everyday
Laughing is good medicine for a broken heart. spend time with someone close, it might boost you a bit.
call your mom and gossip, that’s what I do when I feel like shit
I have scars like that and I really like others with scars. Not sure why. I think it’s cause they’re like me. But I don’t really do it anymore and prefer them to be old from years ago when I see them on others.
Consider getting some tattoos! They can beautify your scars. In China, when a cup breaks, they keep the cup and put it back together with gold. Scars can be beautiful if you’re creative about it.