it’s been a while since i posted here
they put so much pressure on me to know what i want to be doing in the future though the way they act, it’s hard to know what i should be doing in the present. it’s hard trying to follow their every command, trying to be perfect.
it’s so confusing.
i have this girl who calls herself my friend, but i’ve never said i’m hers. i hate her so much. she’s so self-centered, and the few times i’ve attempted to bring up my own problems(never again) she always makes it about her, and brings up her own. it’s not always about you, please hear me out, PLEASE listen to me.
she’s always finding some way to make herself look like a victim, some pitiable thing, though it’s plain rude when she tries to one-up others’ problems.
anyways, this isn’t about her. hh.
my mental health has been really deteriorating recently, and she’s not helping. she can never take a hint and will never leave me alone. i’m trying to leave her, but it won’t do.
is it okay if i want to cut her off?
she makes me feel so bad(and i can’t tell if it’s on purpose) because i feel like she’s saying my problems aren’t as bad as hers, or that mine don’t matter, i don’t know.