Dead Again

So here I am at rock bottom again, not a coincidence 1 year ago on this exact day , I thought of trying to kill my self too. So here I am , what do to do. It’s not like I haven’t tried before. I just wish it got me somewhere better than here. I don’t belong here, alive I mean , here with all of you. I’m a mistake that was never supposed to be , but no one understands. All they want is me to continue living for their sake. What about mine?!? It is not selfish to die if you no longer wish to live. It is however selfish to keep someone alive in a prison they no longer wish to be apart of. I’m tired and exhausted, and I don’t know how much longer I can take it anymore.