I think a lot about purpose, trying to have one and how I fail at it. In a wider scope though, I don’t think anyone else is doing better at actually having a purpose, hence my thesis; anyone can either be replaced or rendered unnecessary.
It’s been bugging me more and more, what with some of the recent celebrity news, but also the way AI is literally taking what people are all about. I love AI art, but it’s a depressing thing to love. The celebrity news is Justin Roiland of Rick and Morty has been removed from all of his projects. I’m not defending him, at all. Just, morbidly, realizing he’s being replaced.
Maybe it won’t work out, I’ve seen that before that a central creative role is vacated for whatever reason and it’s the show can’t recover. Somehow, I’d be more okay with that. The reason; if it carries on with the same success it has had in the past, then didn’t that make his creative input entirely meaningless? If someone can be replaced, what purpose have they?
Meanwhile I finally bought the bullet (figuratively) and called to try and make an appointment with a new therapist, straight to voicemail. Which is where I rage against the universe; why are the people important to me not worth replacing?! If all work is automatable, how long until I’m just talking to some computer and it’s like “my algorithm says you matter, customer 8237”
It’s pointless, almost everything. I turned 35 yesterday, as if such things matter… they used to, but we were probably lying to ourselves from the beginning. I’ve been automated out of two careers, and I really don’t feel like getting up for a third time… nothing I do amounts to anything, because I, like everyone else, can be replaced.