Earlier this week, wednesday, I went to a job fair, and it felt relatively good
the problem is that since then, I’ve been feeling more drained than usual. Even now, two days later, having had two decent nights of sleep, and some really strong coffee. I feel like I’m gasping. Like I just ran a mile. I’ve got a weird numbness in my dominant hand. I’m fully aware of things I could work on…. but I feel so very tired, short of breath.
It’s such a depressed feeling, being physically and emotionally drained to this point.
Earlier this week, I got a message from the non profit that’s been managing my treatment. They wanted to help me get connected to a new therapist, which is probably the thing I’ve tried the hardest for in the last month…. and I keep telling myself I’ll catch my breath, I’ll call them back…. but the weekend comes around and I didn’t do it.
I’m trying, for pity sake. it just doesn’t matter, I come up short, and it would take a major injection of some sort of goodness to restore me to who I once was.