What would you undo?
lol i had originally meant in ur own life, like any “mistakes” or choices that would have brought out dramatic changes in your life, like just switching majors or having gone to a different school. had i gone with what i originally wanted to do at the original uni i wanted to go to, my life would have been MUCH different. sigh. 🙁
or what if i had tried running away when i was little and actually done it?
well, I’m not certain if this change is possible, but I’d go back in time and choose to get really into math and engineering in high school. Like, nothing socially, I’d be a nerd and that would be fine. But math. I could have taken calculus in high school FOR FREE.
and I realize that maybe this seems like a little thing, and I certainly didn’t think it mattered at the time. but if I had stayed in high school, graduated, I would be entitled to a free associates degree….
which brings me to POINT 2; take the free four year degree that was offered. My mom works at a private university. I could have gone to school for free long enough to complete undergrad, anyone on faculty has that priviledge….
butt I didn’t take either of those routes and now have $40,000 in debt AND a stupid undergrad degree, which brings me to my last fix;
I would have majored in civil engineering. It just would have been more interesting, AND I wouldn’t need a graduate diploma to make a decent living at it.
So yeah, just a good strong kick in the academics is what I needed, starting 20 years ago. My personal mistakes are… regrettable, sure, but I could have weathered them if I had a career worth a damn. Like forget my divorce, I’m designing drainage systems, I’m actually essential and hard to fire.
I can’t say that this was less boring than my screed on how I’d fix American history
pfft, i kicked ass academically, but wtf did any of it do for me?
sigh…that’s why for me it’s utterly depressing.
I don’t know. I ended up the way I am now because I burned out and then completely isolated myself for about 2 years. The way I felt back then, this would have been impossible, but I would have tried to be more honest with the people around me about how I feel. I even lied to my psychiatrist and a couple of therapists. Also, if I knew how those meds would affect me I would have never started taking them… I know that if I had never started taking olanzapine my life would have been a lot better a lot sooner. And that’s not even my fault.
man this is a really tough question if you think about it. If you go back and change a significant event in your life, then everything after that point gets erased & rewritten.
so if you go back and change your school, then all the people you met in school & any enriching experiences would be lost. I would also love to go back and change my school/career path, but when I was in school I saved a dog’s life on campus and he was the best thing that ever happened to me. I don’t want to lose that victory even if it means accepting the crappy school I went to.
i bet if we really analyze our lives we’ll see that there are diamonds in the shit like that. If we take away the shit, we lose the few diamonds we may have gathered along the way.
I would like to undo the last 3 years though. nothing good came of that, it’s just been an unstoppable downward spiral with no bright spots at all. so I’d go back 3 years and undo everything,gladly erase everything that came after. I had a risky opportunity to move to california maybe I’d take that.
nope, i would still redo / undo my whole life. my life has been that shitty that i would give up any “victories” i had.