scared as usual

This past week has felt like an eternity. Prep for presentations and projects that I know I’m no good at. My partners are the ones that put in most of the work. I just uselessly tag along. Always depending on someone and never the one who is depended on. I’ve also been real weepy lately. Crying over how useless I am. No matter what I do I’ll never learn and better myself. It’s almost like I’m incapable of growing. That’s why I can’t cut it in this Master’s program or in the workforce. My decision hasn’t really changed. I’m going to leave after barely a semester and try to get a job I’ll also want to leave. I don’t know. This week is dangerous. It’s hell week. I don’t know how I will survive. But life will go on after this week. It will and I don’t know what state I’ll be in. I just don’t know.