I’ve been so depressed the last few months that I’m not even eating. Ok, it’s more like due to my fatigue and health issues, it’s the GETTING food that is the big problem. I could do it, but it’s so taxing on me. Which means I haven’t been going as often as I need and so I’ve been going hungry.
I told myself I need to go to the grocery store today, but yet again, I am lying in bed not doing it.
It’s so fucking bullocks that you have to keep getting groceries, keep eating, just to live. I know it’s “normal” for other ppl but like when you’re sick and have no energy, it’s a chore and a half to just go get yourself food. And it’s not one and done. You have to keep doing it. Meaning every week you run out of food and have to go get more, otherwise you go hungry and get sicker.
And no I don’t have a car so I can’t stock up on food, and I don’t have my own place or fridge so I can’t stock up. Which means struggling to go so goddamn often. Struggling every fucking week to do it. Hell, it doesn’t even last a week. I need to go 2x a week.
How sad and pathetic that I don’t have the energy and willpower to even get groceries so I don’t go hungry?
And that is where I’ve been the last few months. Forget ACTUALLY trying to do anything or accomplish anything. Right now it’s going to the grocery store to feed myself and I’ve been losing that battle. FML.
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Can’t you order online? In my country there are many apps popping up that deliver all type of groceries, with free home delivery over certain amount.
yeah i had issues with that in the past and stopped using them a few years ago. i suppose i could go back but i just remember a lot of frustration with online delivery when i had used it.
also, the stores where i’m at all charge fees. they’re all on instacart or some platform that charges mf’ing fees. and some stores aren’t on any delivery service. my main gripe is that they aren’t free or cheap. There’s usually a delivery fee AND a service charge where I am.