Everyone always says shit like “I wouldn’t wish it on my enemy.” Well I DO. I DO wish “it” on my enemy. And every single person that has NO sympathy, no empathy, no compassion or NO CLUE as to how being sick means I can’t do things anymore, how I can’t function anymore.
I wish I could give ppl a taste of what my health problems are like, for ppl to FEEL it, and have NO WAY OUT like I don’t. Go and tell me to “journal” or “think happy” one more fucking time.
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I’m inclined to agree, though I’d narrow it down even further to people making decisions about health initiatives. I’m always seeing and the butt of terrible ones; drink more water? My doctor told me to slow down on the water. Don’t smoke? I switched to vaping and I still get grief over it. Eat right? I try, not that anyone makes that easy.
like how about a bus ticket to somewhere with people that care? I’ve had hotline people ask what they could do to help, and I tell them that, still no bus ticket. It’s a couple hundred bucks, I cost easily hundreds just in healthcare, it makes no financial sense. I’ve lost count of the “report fraud” posters I’ve seen, but I think it’s fraud to keep spending tax dollars on keeping people miserable and poor.
I also get the “are you homicidal” question and don’t know how to answer that. I want to make these jerks feel so hopeless and miserable that they want to die, BUT I want them to be intimately aware that is not even remotely an option, and that taking that will harm the people they care about the most
like I don’t want to kill anyone, that’s faaaaar too nice. Dead people can’t suffer.
I want proportional punishment, which if we can’t replicate depression is going to be hanging upside down, have 20 pound weights hung from your hands, by one foot and being forced to eat and sleep that way.
“like I don’t want to kill anyone, that’s faaaaar too nice. Dead people can’t suffer.”
nah, what you want to do is something like close up one nostril, so they’re forced to only be able to breathe out of one nostril and not two (to mildly mimic someone who has breathing issues, like me). And idk what other else since I haven’t thought of “torture” stuff but daily everyday living for me = struggling to breathe, struggling to move around, constant fatigue, brain fog, foot issues, etc. So whatever can mimic real life struggles.
hanging upside down with weights doesn’t seem hard enough. i’m ex military. anything physical for a healthy person isn’t that hard and it’s easy enough to endure. would it be uncomfortable and make muscles sore, sure. but not enough for someone to actually FEEL what a disabled or chronically ill person feels every second of every day.
and whatever is analogous to depression upon ppl, although non physical is harder/near impossible to achieve. unless you’re talking about magically forcing someone to feel and understand. which is what i was getting at in my post. i WANT to have ppl feel what we feel so they’d fucking understand. and i dare them to come back and tell us the shit they do now like “go journal, be grateful,” blah blah
It would be great if someone invented a temporary mind swap machine, where others could see what it’s like to be us for just 5 mins. And we could feel others’ perspectives. I bet a lot of people would stfu after an experience like that.
I can’t claim to know every kind of pain, but I’ve sampled this rancid buffet table enough to know that pain comes in infinite flavors. Even though I haven’t tried every one, I recognize the reaction. So if someone tells me they’re in deep pain, I can draw on one of my own deep pain experiences to understand.
I think that’s where society is deficient; the average member of society who walks on 2 legs & has 5 senses can’t fathom what it’s like to be less than that. And that’s because they’ve never lived through hell. So yes, I definitely want all my enemies to feel my pain but it’s not really for revenge or punishment. I just wish others would broaden their minds so they could see beyond their safety bubble, and maybe then people would start caring about others, or at least stop being so rude and insensitive.
As for those who are already kind & compassionate by nature, I would want to spare them the pain. No sense learning a harsh lesson if you already know the material. That’s why I can’t embrace a sociopathic attitude of making the whole world suffer. My own suffering makes me realize others are suffering worse, and those people should be spared further pain.
Pain is a weird thing. It broadens our awareness and understanding of all things, but too much pain sends people back into their own selfish darkness.