I feel so much pain from this. Why is this woman and her people so mean to me? I don’t understand.
3:56 and on, “Ashley, you’re so effing ugly. Did I?” Where she says my work’s name and says go eff yourself. They change that one sometimes, too. Just, with more mean insults. I want to die sometimes. This makes me feel like giving up. She once told me to drink poison on the end of that song for expressing how I felt about it. Depressed, suicidal. It’s crazy to think someone advocating for mental health would do any of that. I feel better about this. I feel heard now, finally. Why do I always rationalize bad things and twist it into a fantasy or a game. Maybe it made me feel safe for a quick minute. That and I doubted myself a lot because my friends are power control type history types that will gaslight me when I show it to them. Had to get rid of them, too. You know what’s the most interesting… This woman put my name on Sour Candy because I think it has something to do with Biden asking S Korea to pay for her concert, or something? Maybe she was saying “I’m big, you’re little, you’re nothing, you’re jealous” but honestly, not that someone like that cares, but I really just liked the music. You’d think, that a 40 year old woman like that would have gained something from all the work and speeches, essays she put out… Absolutely not. How can someone with so much potential be so ruined in their soul? That’s the most disappointing part. She never really meant anything she stood for. At least others gain from it. It would be one thing if it was one time, no. It was SO MANY times.
The second one used to say, “Ashley Kraft is Ugly” but obviously, they’re changing it a lot when I ask that they remove it.
Honestly, I voiced my concerns about it and she bullied me even worse on 911. I live in a small town. Homophobia and racism is a big thing here. This has been going on for years. I don’t understand it. I’ve attempted suicide a couple of times because of other things and hearing more hate and that I’m not welcome just tipped me over the edge. I don’t understand why an advocate for mental health and the LGBTQ community would do so much to hurt someone that has less than them. (Obviously she’s a vulnerable narc) Have you seen Gaga 5’2? Was she driving drunk walking into a room, everybody smiling, that’s not normal?? Surprising nobody questions it.
Even though I’m more about the heart and soul of a conversation, it’s something to point out. She has so many resources that other’s don’t. A lot of power. Why is she doing that? Is she embarrassed that other’s in the YouTube space spoke up about it… I mean how many times was she using my personal information to rage? Not even just my name. I heard anonymous do it’s thing in disapproval of the hate. Is that it?
I guess here’s my answer. This is nice. I feel heard for once.