Lately I have been thinking about “The Butterfly Effect”, If I made the slightest difference in choice a while back would I be somewhere completely different than I am now? If I chose not to do something as simple as pick up a penny one day would everything around me be different? If I didn’t make a tiny choice at some point in my younger years would I live in the same state? Would I be making straight A’s instead of failing? With a small choice I made, did that cause this sequence of events in my life. Because of a few minor things that may have happened around me that weren’t my fault, cause me to go down this path of depression?
Am I determined to fail or will I maybe find success one day? I used to have all these careers I wanted to do in the future but now I am hardly interested in anything anymore. I found myself laying in bed all day staring at the ceiling. Is this what my life has come to. Am I destined to be a depressed fuck? Will I ever find happiness? Where can I find that so called “happiness”? When? Where? How? Why? Why do I have these constant feelings? There are so many things weighing on my mind, it hurts.