What if we’re not good enough?
What if we’re not strong enough?
Not confident enough?
WEAK.
What if we just can’t make good decisions anymore?
What if the reason we’re depressed is bc we’re too chickenshit- not confident enough and not brave enough, to go do what we should do? Whether it’s expatting overseas by myself, despite being sick and disabled and alone. Or maybe in your case not confident enough to ask a girl out on a date. Or insert any thing we haven’t done due to lack of confidence.
There’s many reasons for my depression but the biggest one is on myself- that it’s MY own fault I haven’t done what needed to be done, bc I’m too scared to up and move to Latin America by myself, not knowing anyone, not knowing the language, not having any help whatsoever. It’s scary and IDK if I can do it. (There’s also HUGE issues with visa if I want to stay beyond the allowed 3 or 6mo and I haven’t figured out how to get around the visa issue without spending $45K that is needed to apply for permanent residency. And there’s also the issue of not being smart enough to figure out a better solution other than moving to a cheaper 3rd world country to survive).
Or made the wrong decisions (like move back home) which was literally the WORST decision ever. Or other bad decisions (like moving to the last few places).
It does no good to self-blame, but it’s also not something I can really control. Just like telling myself “I’m not depressed, think happy thoughts” doesn’t make happy thoughts appear, telling myself to NOT blame myself doesn’t make me any less shitty about myself.
It’s self-blame, yes, but is it wrong to self-blame or is it justified? Is it justified self-blame if we haven’t done stuff we should’ve done? Due to fear. Due to depression. Due to inertia.